stupid manual car learning!!!!

baru tadi aku baru habis blajar kereta wat kali ke enam...
aku ada lbey kurang 4 jam je lagi...
n menurut cikgu kete aku, aku ni boleh bawak, cuma aku ni pemikiran tak seimbang dan sebab aku ini perempuan, jadi masalah common yang aku slalu ada adalah risau, takut dan tak berkeyakinan di atas jalan raya...

which is quite true, really...

sepanjang aku mengenali cikgu kereta aku, aku dapat tahu yang pemikiran dia pasal aku adalah aku ini seorang yang berbadan besar tapi hati kecik... which is very wrong [in my opinion arr], dan menurutnya, aku ini seorang yang tak sesuai amik law... which is very wrong also... but then, aku ini memang agak lembab dalam blajar kete, so salah aku jugak arr and it's quite natural for him to pass a judgement like that about me since i am a terribly lousy driver...

so i need to fix myself. just bear with that stupid manual car until i get a damn P license and tunggu bapak aku bagi aku kereta kancil auto 2nd hand yang bekas abang aku punya sementara dia dapat kereta myVi baru. [the eldest always get new stuffs]...

but i still hate learning how to drive. and sometimes i complain on why am i not a rich man's daughter who have a driver. which is still quite useless....

thus, the only way to solve this is to increase my confidence and don't act like a chicken while i'm on the road, since others' lives are on the line. so i need to focus, and focus, and don't get nervous, and increase my awareness and just basically pray to myself that i can drive a car like a normal human being while on the road...